Falling In and Out of Love

“Falling in love is a crazy thing to do. It’s like a socially acceptable form of insanity.” – from a movie (Her). It really is like this, isn’t it? This is a particularly memorable quote and I guess it summarizes perfectly my last therapy session with EV.

A couple of days ago, we met for our 20th and last session. It was perhaps the most emotionally charged session I’ve ever had, mostly in a good way.

I finally told EV that I love her.

First, I broke the ice by asking a few questions, slowly building up to this moment where I told her how I felt about her. She didn’t really respond directly, ’cause like what can she say? She’s my therapist, after all.

But it was pretty obvious that it hit her hard, she melted.

It got pretty crazy after that, the session flew by, it was one for the ages.

We laughed, maybe flirted around a bit, talked about our ‘therapeutic journey’ together, some of our most noteworthy highlights, and hugged, near the end.

When you fall in love with someone, it’s intoxicating, you can’t think about anything else; all you want is to be with them, hold them in your arms, stare at their beautiful eyes all day long, and potentially spend the rest of your life with them.

That’s how it is in “normal” relationships. In therapy, it’s a bit different. ‘Cause you can’t sleep with your therapist, like lol duh.

So, I guess it might be easier to get over your therapist compared to an ex-boy/girlfriend who you’ve actually slept with. EV reminds me of an ex from my younger days ’cause the feelings involved were very similar.

Anyways, now that it’s over, would I do it all over again? Absolutely. Because:

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These days haven’t been easy, I’ve been feeling a bit ‘lovesick’, to tell the truth. But I’m pretty confident and optimistic that it’ll get better with time. It usually does.

In the end, falling in and out of love is a natural phase of life, not everyone gets to experience it, it’s not for the faint of heart, but oh, it’s so very well worth it. After all, love is the greatest feeling in the world.

 

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28 thoughts on “Falling In and Out of Love

  1. Ah wow you’re soooooo braveeeeeeeee! Sorry I had missed this blog somehow when I asked how it went – durrrr! Do you think this is a type of erotic transference or does the love feel a different type of love? Xx

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    1. Ahah hi Marco, it’s been a while! It doesn’t surprise me that you see it this way, although I am surprised to see your comment, thanks for stopping by, cheers. 🙂

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  2. Love IS intoxicating, isn’t it? And then it settles to committed love, as I call it. I recall the early days of my 15-year old marriage and how I could just take in the sight of my love every single moment of every single day – those moments still happen, for sure. *sigh* Hehe. Well, I will be thinking of you as you move forward. 🙂

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    1. Aww Sageleaf, that’s a lovely story 🙂 even though I sense a “sigh” of disappointment (or nostalgia?) perhaps. Overall, glad to see that you’ve persisted in staying committed to your loved one. Thanks for sharing your story and appreciate your thoughts 🙂 hugs

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    1. Hi LMT! ‘Her’ is an amazing movie indeed 😉 thank you so much for your kind words, really appreciate it ❤ I guess "speaking your truth" comes easier with time and practice 🙂 hugs

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  3. indeed, it is! and love has some many phases: all of them wonderful! even when it’s painful, you have this hope walking with you.

    love is a lot like music, i think. it invades you and controls your heart and senses. in a good way. i never tried drugs, but the sensation must be very similar!

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    1. Hi Nicia, yes indeed, true that of the many phases 🙂 lovely touch with the “hope walking” besides us.

      Also, agree with the love-music analogy, there are some similarities, quite intriguing. And with drugs, err lol, well that’s a story for another time 😉 thanks for commenting, cheers and hugs ❤

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      1. maybe the most powerful emotions are similar. when you have a lot of joy, or when you fall in love, or when you’re really, really sad (or really, really angry), you are in ecstasy, and you enter in a trance-like state. life is so awesome. ❤

        i'd love to experience out-of-body phenomenons (i meditate but didn't reach that phase yet), drug induced or not. i'm turning 33 in a couple of days and that would be the perfect time to try it, don't you think? 😀

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      2. Yea could be, when emotions hit a peak in intensity, it does seem like we enter a “trance-like state”, pretty awesome indeed haha.

        Also, happy birthday! I’m guessing it’s either today or tomorrow. 🙂 As for trying an “out-of-body” experience, up to you. If induced by drug – be safe, relaxed, and try to enjoy it 😉 later xo

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  4. Love requires sacrifice. I never really thought about the fact that this is true whether it’s reciprocated or not. Either way, it isn’t easy, but you’re right. We’re lucky we get to experience it even if only for a moment. Thank you for this, you’re not ‘lovesick’ alone and your strength is inspiring 🙂

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    1. Thanks dear, yea I guess sacrifice does play a part. It’s never easy ahah! Anyways, experiencing love sure does make life more colorful and vibrant, it’s definitely worth it! 🙂 Really sweet and kind words from you, appreciate the support 😉

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  5. You can’t control who you fall in love with. It is the greatest feeling in the world. And how great of you to let your guards down, but at the same time, you are optimistic about your future. That’s a great way to handle the situation. I hope you find Ms. Right in due time.

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    1. Yea true, I guess if it’s meant to be, it’ll happen one way or another. 🙂 Such kind and wonderful words, thank you Ipuna, your name makes me laugh ahah! Amazing stuff 😉

      Anyways, yea it’s good to be optimistic about the future and hopefully Ms. Right will come around eventually! Have a great weekend!

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